Some of you may have picked up on it....Before anything, just allow me to tell just how much I have adored and cherished the love, kindness, support and friendship I have gained from all of you who cared to view what I'd drawn.
Doing these silly (And usually illogical/disturbing
) comic-strips and images has literally been one of the highlights in my life, as cheesy and cliché as that may sound, I swear, it's absolutely true. Ever since way back when I started with my couple of watchers right up to this moment with over 19'000 watchers, breaking the 1'000'000 pageview milestone and having amassed over 10'000'000 hits
, logging into this account and seeing many, many supportive remarks and friendly comments, watching the favourites rise steadfastly on each deviation, seeing others willing to try improve their own, or return, to drawing (Despite the fact that I still do not wish to be titled as an "artist") has never made me happier, honestly, way back when a certain comic known as "Number 1 Fan"
made it to the top 10 on the Deviantart frontpage, I haven't stopped smiling, and to this day, I still can't quite believe that my stuff would actually be seen by so many and shared with many more. Not trying to sound sappy but it honestly sometimes made me a little teary-eyed!
Not to mention how much fun I had getting into interviews and screwing around on artist-panels
And that is why I'm having a very difficult time just trying to say this...
I mean, when I drew that picture of Dashie over a year ago, I had no idea it would lead to this! But sadly, that phenomenal support is a deadly and depressing double-edged sword, and now that metaphorical blade slices my own hands.
I just want to make one thing clear: I'm not doing this because of something someone said or did, nor is it because I wish to feel like an asshole and leave you all, don't worry.
When I started drawing these pictures, there was always that tiny little voice in my head, the voice which carried a depressing melody, always saying "You know, some day you will have to stop, you'll be back in school, you can't do these forever."
Of course, back then it was easier as I didn't have the same tremendous support, love and recognition as I have now.
Corny as it sounds, it's that support which I'll miss the most. I've made many connections and friends, good, talented friends through the positive power found within each and every one of you in this community, and that is why this feels terrible, no matter what anyone says, I feel like I'm deserting you all, and I feel terrible about it.
While I was here, I did try to do something useful by highlighting and sharing artists whom, to me, had a much higher capability, willingness as well as determination than myself. I hope that they, and many other amazing artists will keep up the tremendous work and the outstanding quality you're all used to in this community, they're in their thousands, and I hope every single one gets the recognition they each deserve.
Man, this is really dragging out, must be the longest journal entry yet...
Look, what I've been trying to say since the opening of this passage is that there's a high probability of me going on hiatus...for a long time...maybe permanently, I don't know.Why is this?
It's because of both my school-work in a few days as well as my own life. Ever since I became more noticed I sometimes began to neglect my own life just so I could work on stuff here, for me, for all of you too. It's a burden I've tried to relieve many times in the past but only finding the strength to do so now.
Listen, it's not that I don't enjoy making these things for you, believe me, nothing made me happier, it gave structure to an ugly mess of delayed and rescheduled events I called "my life", and leaving it makes me feel dead inside, as mentioned, I feel as if I'm deserting you, being an asshole.
I always said, right from the day I joined this site, that I'm not an artist, just a regular joe who found joy in drawing things, there are many here who aspire to become fully-fledged artists and all of whom have the necessary skills to make it, so I knew some day I'd vanish from here, just didn't think people would notice my lack of work.
Now, that said, that doesn't mean I'll go entirely, I mean, I plan on staying in touch with everyone I've found companionship in, I'll do my best to try help others and, during the breaks and whatnot, I might throw up a picture or even a comic if possible, I don't know! What I do know is that there are many other fantastic comic-artists on this site as well as others
that will bear the torch and keep you guys entertained!
What I do know is that I couldn't leave forever, all of you, magnificent and beautiful people
, draw my thoughts back to this site, this page, every single minute of every single day. Just think of me more as an over-seer now, I simply MUST keep track of the ace art I see here!
So, I'm not sure how you'll react to this, having read it through several times in my mind just seems to make it worse, not to mention how long this passage must look.
Alright, I'll have to end it somewhere, might as well start here. (Oh the irony.)
So, you guys, at the end of the day, whether I'm here, or, if worst came to worst, this account vanished, know that you guys have made an enormous difference in my life, and no, I'm not just saying that, you really have.
It's probably the most amazing milestone I've reached in this life, and hopefully will lay down the foundation for many similar leaps and bounds like it, the future looks brighter from where I'm standing.
This is it I suppose, the time's unfortunately caught up. But here's hoping I can submit some stuff during the breaks or whatnot, right?
Come on, let's at least make this seem somewhat positive!
(Come on, it's probably the last one!) Somewhat standing-down and reluctant to press "Submit",